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Read this if you're new (or bored...).
2002-06-28 - 11:19 p.m.
In honor of Aretha
"What you want, baby I got it. What you need, you know I got it. All I'm asking is for a little respect!" well, it's another 2-entry day. For those of you who were following the saga with me and my best friend, swing by the "older entries" page and get updated. For those of you who know the story, I'm sure most of you think I've been given a lot of bullshit by this man. I dont want to beleive that this is true, for a few reasons. First, he *is* my best friend, so I can't believe he would do that to me. Second, if you knew him as well as I do, you'd have a hard time considering him a con artist. Then again, it's always possible that that's because he's really that good at it. Third, and the most harsh... It means that no man has ever respected me. My first BF replaced me, then blamed me for having issues when I called him on it. When we tried to be friends, he told me not to expect to hear from him. Ever. Why? Because I had the audacity to speak my mind and to actually be concerned about him. How dare I? Then, my second BF saw that I was going to break up with him, so he dumped me first. I was a bitch for being argumentative. I was a fucking bitch for dating and not telling him. I was expectedto be 100% painfullt honest with him -- but he didnt have to reciprocate because I never actually asked him to. Bovine fecal matter, anyone? The date I didnt mention was more interested in hooking up than anything. Not exactly resectful there, though I'm slightly solaced by the fact that at least the disrespect was openly mutual, though it was never labeled disrespect. And now it's possible that my best friend, whom I really want to be with, is still using me as backup and emotional support, while looking elsewhere for a physical aspect he can't have with me thanks to the distance. So, either I'm failing to command respect, or men just dont know how to give it. I'd like some input on this debate. How can I get some respect? Why can't I? Is it me? Is it them? As always, answers are greatly appreciated.
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